Thursday, September 16, 2010
Last Sunday the pastor was preaching about courage. He said courage was walking through your fear. So I decided that I was going to walk through my fear of opening my heart to this church and start going to the woman's bible study. So far I am very glad I did. Monday was the first meeting and there were 4 other women there and they were open and seemingly real. Real people loving Jesus. Also I started reading "What's so Amazing about Grace?" By Philip Yancey. So far its a great book. These are steps to walk through my fear... Not only of opening my heart to this church but to God. We have had the worst 2 years for our family. My son was hurt badly by a foster teen boy in our home, our foster agency turned their back on us, we left and were hurt by church after church, Justin's dad died of cancer, to name a few. So I felt God could not be trusted. I hope that I can find my way back to trusting him again. To being completely in love with him again. I think its possible I just need to keep walking. Keep walking in-spite of my fear.